Ah yes. I think i changed.
Ever since last year-the beginning of sec 3.
Before that, i never liked boys. I didnt like to look at them. I thought they had cooties.
I dont know why, i suddenly started noticing them.
Hormones maybe.
Or just plain stupidness.
Because right now, when i see a cute guy, i gush and maroon over him thats making my appetite sicken.
And as what charles says "thats so typical of you"
I REMEMBER OK
That brought me back down to earth
And together with Benjis and Beckys notice in my sudden change of behaviour,
Ive realised " who am i kidding"
Or my sudden shopping compulsive behaviour
Actually, from the start,ive always been crazy about shopping.
Ever since sec 1.
That was when all of us were wearing those bermudas and t-shirts.
I was a shopaholic for tshirts.
Now im in love with buying bags,accesories and shoes.
But thats not the point.

Sometimes i find myself a real fake
And even more so when people can actually guess my actual feeling
But i hate to cause unnecessary problems because no offence but girls are really naturally aggressive creatures.

Im not crazy about shopping or my hair.
Im not really serious about losing weight either.
Because ill end up eating like a horse anyway.
I love chinese history and politics. I buy cosmetics not because i like using them-its their packaging.
I want to be a public relations manager or a comestic store director.
I want to be someone like Ho Ching except not so ambitious.
And im interested in economics.
I enjoy making fun of people-but i dont mean it to offend.
Im really camera-obsessive.

And my grades.
I know some people are not happy with them.
I wonder who.
I really can just stab them in their back until they would become like those gory horror movies
But its not worth it
You think i feel proud of those grades
That ill always get the highest?
I dont get those grades for myself. I get them because of my parents. Do you know how they look when they see my grades? It gives me this sense of accomplishment that i actually made them proud.
But thats not always the case.
My family seems happy, we really are, infact today we just laughed our heads off today.
We do have our dark moments too you know.
One experience i can remember was when we got back our PSLE results.
I actually got posted to Normal Acad.
I was doing so well in primary school.
And suddenly the stupid cert said "Admitted to normal acad"
Do you know my dad slapped me because of that.
It was so painful.
My mom quarreled with him because of that
I dont blame my dad, i never got his brain.
My dad was always in the best class at the top of the level.
For psle he had 4 A*s. How do you compete with that?
That was when i thought its the end
I failed so many times in sec 1 and 2 while everyone else i knew were getting As and even more As.
I changed my study habits because i realised i didnt want to be at the bottom.
OBVIOUSLY some people made comments about it when we got back our prelims
And they were supposed to be friend
Maybe due to their naviety that they actually think im scared of them
They should wake up.
Because im not scared of anyone
Besides ghosts/dad

Ok! gtg now! going to watch "huan zhu ge ge" with my dad, rewatching my old favourite shows.bye!