wearing:polo tee and jeans
mood: sleepy

I was doing some soul-searching recently. I was reflecting on my actions for the past few days and i must say that im almost ashamed of myself. Its hard to put it in a nice decent paragraph but basically the human nature is sick.

Why sick?

Ive just realised that in all my years of education, theres always a particular person or two who always kena or get taunted the most. I tried putting myself in their posistion and i shudder to think how they feel.The feeling of ostracization is bad enough. Imagine being ridiculed, backstabbed and talk back at happening at the same time. In their posistion, they are powerless do to anything. Attempt to make friends, people in general will turn their backs on them. Trying to show a bit of temper to show that you want all the taunting to stop will get tongues wagging, most laughing really. Keep up with pretences that you dont know whats going on so that you can at least try to intergrate will only worsen the situation. Its been such a cycle ever since primary school and it was only just recently where i realised that i was caught into it. Not as the victim but as the sideliners who sometimes point and laugh.

Sometimes. I must clarify my name here haha. I must admit sometimes i do take part in ridiculing others but i dont really mean it. Most of the time i just would do my own stuff when others make fun, its a little uncomfortable really to be hearing people talking trash about someone else. That applies to only when im neutral with or find that person okay. On the other hand...

Okay. Ive sidelined enough! Coming back to the "Why are people sick" part. Having experienced the glee of talking bad about someone for the fun of it, i realised that im doing so at the persons expense. It seems that there is some kind of sick fun in making a mockery out of a person just because of a)Looks b)Weird character c)something he/shes done. The majority of us actually finding this insenstitive, rather disgusting act fun makes pretty much makes the human nature sick sometimes. I remember in secondary school where we used to pick on a single girl (i wont mention her name la) just because of something we heard and basically most of the options up there. She was really nice and now i cant remember why did we have to treat her so badly. The worst part was that we were so damn obvious that we ended up getting a letter from her after the O levels. We ended up feeling guilty during the holidays.

So in JC, its still the same thing only different people. Now i can count about 3 people who get it the worst. I think its even more irritating when people make fun of them when they dont even know them. A flock of blind sheep. Im not advocating to be some saint and ban myself from ever gossiping/saying bad stuff/poking fun at people, because i dont think its possible.

BECAUSE REMEMBER MY QUIZ SAID I WAS AN A-STAR BITCH?! HAAHAHAHAHA.

but i shall try to abstain.

Ahh now i can sleep.